Every Step Matters

Aloha, Superheroes!

As I am dealing with really bad water retention due to my kidneys being weird on me, I decided to look up motivational things to help me feel a little better instead of negatively dwelling on my situation. No one likes a Negative Nancy, do they? Of course not!

As I stated on my fitness page yesterday, I am going to start weekly fitness tests to measure my progress instead of focusing heavily on the scale. I want to start training myself to look beyond the scale because once I reach my goal weight (which will be eventually), the scale won't move anymore so I need to be satisfied with other things. 

One thing that I DEFINITELY want to do in 2014 is participate in a 5K race. I've been wanting to do this for SO long and as soon as I started training for it, my lupus had other plans and put me in the hospital for 5 months and I lost my ability to walk. But now, I'm back with a vengeance! I haven't been walking for a full year yet, but I am determined to train myself to walk those 3.2 miles in the shortest time possible!

Anyway, I wanted to make this blog post to remind myself and anyone else who has had a medical setback that every step that you take in your recovery is major progress.  Sometimes it's hard for me to be patient with my body but I always fail to remember how far I've come and I'm damn proud of myself. I didn't have much help from physical therapy due to my insurance so I was given an ultimatum: either do nothing about it or do it myself. I obviously chose to own my life!

Here is where I started:

(I took this picture as my Before photo when I was doing DDP Yoga. I was trying to raise my leg and touch my toes to test my flexibility but my legs were SO weak I could hardly raise it off of the ground! I've definitely come a good ways)

And here I am on most days today:

(Sidenote: Being able to cross my legs was a HUGE NSV for me! It's now natural and I do it without even thinking about it when I sit down lol)

So there you have it. I'm not where I want to be but I'm so much more farther than anyone thought I'd be. I've truly learned that the human body is capable and can withstand ALMOST anything. It's your MIND that you have to convince. You can sometimes be your own worst enemy and once you get your mind in check, absolutely NOTHING can stop you if you want it bad enough. 

What is the thing that I want the most? A sexy body? Not really. Being able to wear cute clothes? Probably not because I have no fashion sense. To get a guy's attention? Of course not because I like to be invisible most of the time. The thing I want most is a better quality of life. A healthy quality of life. A FULL LIFE. I simply want to live.

In the simplest terms, they don't call me Superwoman for no reason. 

I earned that title.

xoxo,

Superwoman